Aw, no more subby for me.
Anyways my life has been kind of hectic. So I haven't been here much.
In 2013 (the last major time of activity here for me) I came very close to killing myself. I threw away a lot of my WIPs and just stopped drawing.
When drawing used to be my only escape from my feelings/frustrations and I found myself unable to draw to "get it out" then it got worse.
I started a hormone treatment in late 2013 to try to fix my mind. I needed my family's support more than ever but instead my mother made my life a living hell at every turn she could...
Did you guys know she threatened to kill my cat because I "defied" her by not cleaning a counter, and her proof of my refusal was 3 droplets of water by the sink on the counter? Yeah. I cleaned a counter then washed the chemicals off my hands, a few droplets fell off my hands onto the counter so she decided it wasn't clean, she told me, "well since you're too irresponsible to even clean a counter properly we may as well put [cat] down to spare him the pain of having you as an owner."
Anyways, she kicked me out in January of 2014, I was basically only given whatever I could carry in my arms and my car. She refused to let me take anything else. Thankfully my girlfriend's parents were just moving out of state so she was home alone in the house mostly.
I still don't have all my stuff back. My mother flat out stole my laptop (she said she "wanted it" so its hers now even though my dad paid for half of it and it was a Christmas present for me). I want to get police involved but I'm also not that spiteful because if I do she'll literally lose her job/career which has a no-tolerance policy for domestic disputes or child abuse. Yes, adult children count. Her coworker heard about everything and almost got my mother fired over it for me (which was naturally blamed on me, despite her coworker only hearing/knowing my mother's side of things and she still knew it was fucked up).
So I've been living on my own but that doesn't mean I'm out of the fire yet... Every time she can my mother finds ways to torment me. Usually by making promises then refusing to keep them (she makes promises in front of people to make it look like she's got my best interests at heart then when we're alone she completely pulls the rug out from under me).
I'm going to Idaho State to get my bachelor's in Dental Hygiene. Getting the hell out of California. Its really not worth it to stay. And the farther I get from her the better. How do I sign up to be a Mars terraformer again?
Just too tired to make art regularly.
I've made a couple things but I don't have a scanner.
Mostly fanart. Eh, what can ya do?
-Work is ebay (I am selling a lot of stuff to make ends meet but I can't get a steady job locally. Not for lack of trying, its just that labor laws in Cali make it really easy for employers to legally enslave people).
-I've lost weight. I was a size 16 when 2014 started. I am currently size 12-14.
-I've gotten really good at cooking and budgeting.
-I've discovered I am transgender.
-My girlfriend is the person I trust the most in the world, she's there for me more than anyone else has been.
-My dad is pretty awesome he is helping when he can but he's really... too busy to be there for me.
-Still haven't gotten a proper diagnosis for my uterus problems other than "stuff ain't working right" and "what do I care you're a woman" (from my doctor).
Back to classwork for me.
Hope you're all doing well.